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Originally Posted by Pequod  I know the feeling of being invisible, it sucks. I only became more visible when I started to get clear on my purpose in life and generally became more in touch with my own wishes, preferences and desires (I had suppressed them for so long, that I had forgotten to listen to myself). So I had to become more clear about myself first, then others started to notice me.
It's a long shot, but could this be the same for you? Do you have goals and a purpose? Do you generally know what you want and go for it? Are you generally very aware of your emotions or do you feel kinda flat most of the time? |
I am very emotionally aware and never flat with my emotions! But as for the other stuff, no, I don't really know what I want, don't have goals or desires that I can work toward. I'm sure that would help me feel more like I deserve the engaged interaction of strangers.
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Originally Posted by Pequod Would it feel like cheating to accept the job offer? (Do you see the link with point #3?)
By the way, I think VelociRaptor and Seeker5 gave a good suggestion. Just throw your cards on the table and let them decide. |
It would feel like cheating and I thank everyone for pointing out that connection. I'd come to the conclusion that it wouldn't be honest of me to take the job, but I hadn't really connected it to the other issues I was facing. Something to think about.
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Originally Posted by Pequod Why do you want to separate it from your life? That only leads to more seperation (your point #1). I would advise Steve's approach of seeing the cheating as a reflection of your own consciousness. So ask yourself: What is it that bothers me about seeing other people cheating and what would I like to be different about myself? |
That may take some time to really explore, but I am going to do it. Thanks.