Wow! Amazing how many responses you have had!! So many of us!!
I have not worked for almost 2 yrs following being bullied yet again in a job, reaching the point of not being able to take it anymore and leaving.
This has been the longest i have not worked and though I have had stress, financial worries and the breakdown of my 2 yr relationship in July I have never been more at peace within myself. I am becoming closer to my spiritual path all the time - something I found evaded me when I was in a workplace full of materialistic atheists/cynics. Indeed even my ex with whom I split in July was an atheist while I am deeply spiritual.
He also allowed us to split (against my will) in a very cruel way too, insisting on finalising it by text when I was in another country for a few weeks, where I was helping a friend out and in so doing build my confidence a bit. Even though I wanted us to meet and break up properly face to face when I got back he insisted he wanted a clean break and never wanted to see me or hear from me again. So basically the last time I saw him was when we said goodbye at the airport as a couple. It was a mutual split (I wanted to take the relationship to a higher level - engaged/move in - he didn't) and it could have been amicable but instead he chose to stick the knife in and twist it. I realise now that he's not the person I thought he was. We're not kids either - he's 36, I'm 29.
Well, now, I am in the process of setting up my own business, relating to my spiritual interests and love of aesthete and healing. All I want to do is make enough money to live decently on so I never have to work for anyone else again. That is my main goal, never mind making a million. I am scared and am trying not to feel too crap within myself but I have to try! I really hope the business works out.
I think sometimes the spirtual and heavenly realm pushes for change in our lives to lead us that bit closer to where we should be for our highest good. I think things go awry for us because somebody somewhere is trying to tell us we need to be somewhere else, somewhere better for us, and ultimately better for others as well (The lightworker-darkworker co-operation!)
I think it is time for me once and for all to embrace Spirit within myself and stop being afraid and running away from it.
I hope I find my way and I hope we all do, for all of our sakes xx
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