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Looking back on it, it was horrible, but I don't know why...
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Maybe because it was an akward moment. But stop looking back. It was just an experience with 'that' person. The whole thing that you're not gay just probably enhanced that 'horrible' feeling in you, even though you say you were fine w/that part. Maybe his ulterior motives bugged you more than you thought..obliviously.
I say don't put too much thought into it. Don't feel like you can't be kind to people, you con't being you and so be it if you happen to be nicer to someone that you find yourself attracted to that's the whole point...and not everyone is going to think you always have 'ulterior motives' if you're being nice. They'll probably first off appreciate the kindness, like you did in this case and that's all unless they're attracted to you too then...well..
I am someone you could say will have people come be nice to me for their 'ulterior motives' and I'll tell you honestly it is very easy to pick up from the gut feeling what is going on almost immediately. I could tell when someone is being 'just nice'/kind or if indeed they are looking for something else from me. My bf is extremely good looking and gay guys LOVE him..no joke!..he is always getting hit on and he has had similiar situations like yours but we just end up laughing about it. We have an inside joke, when we're out if we should be separated for some reason(other parts of the store..)he'll come to me and say, I was naked back there!.
Meaning someone was being nice in a pick up sorta manor.
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I just need to digest the experience more...
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You probably do. But don't think on it too hard.
ps: thought at first that I read your post title as:
An old gay man hit me at starbucks today...NOW that would have been an experience to digest.