Hey Cron,
You're right. I refuse to believe that there's going to be happiness "after" (if) her. I have had many relationships... even long-term ones... but never felt anything closer to the thing I have with this one... never. I won't be wrong if I say any of the previous match 0.01% of what I have now. This is tremendous. That's why I feel her as "the love of my life" - even if I'm wrong. Who knows, only time will tell. The thing I know now - I love her. I love everything about her. I want her in my life. Will accept even that fact (of course if she's honest, and the thing ends soon/immediately). But am afraid of talking to her. She would feel like I'm pushing her, I'm afraid. Even that I don't trust her (because I was checking her cell phone - something I've never thought doing before).
But I need her, want her.... oh you don't know her. She's the most wonderful human being......
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