Thanks for your quick and supportive reactions....
@Cron - I want to give an example where a female coleague of our recently cheated on her husband.... for 8 months. And her husband patiently waited all this time, not mentioning anything. Even her crazy moods sometimes. And then, when her cheating was over, she decided to go back with him and focus her attention just on him. Her husband then told her that he knew about the other guy... and just hugged her.... nothing else. My girlfriend really liked the guy's reactions and told me "That's a real man".... nothing else. And this splits me on what I want to do - let her "live" her thrill with the boss till/if it's over, or talk to her straight. That's what I don't know how to do....
@Velvet - thanks, but I really can't be anywhere now. Every single place in this city, every music on the radio, every single item in front of my eyes reminds me of her. And I've been really sad today. She calls me all the time (we don't live together) and sounds worried. She wants me to be OK, that's for sure. But I can't be. There's nothing that might cheer me at this moment. I should leave the city for a couple of days which I don't have finances for.
@TheColonel - I can't, I don't want. I want her. Only her in my life. I really know she's the one. I feel it. I know it. And if this ends, it's better for my life to end.... at the age of 25 this would be sad.... I can't be cool about that.
I just want her back in my life. But know for sure that she's "mine".
p.s. Probably one thing, that I should mention is her understanding of a relationship and love. She's a young - 21 yr old girl, and has had 3 relationships before ours. She want a relationship to always save this thrill, lust, passion of the first couple of months. And this doesn't happen. She finds it uncool and doesn't want to be with someone, she doesn't feel passion for. I think I changed this thinking (partly) - and I'm sure she loves me, and cares for me. Just doesn't have passion for me. And maybe seeks another lust... who knows..... I'm not able to think clearly. :-(
This is how I feel.... again - thanks... you're great. I really have noone, I can share this with, except you.....THANKS!
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