[garentee]

It has been an intense few days around these parts. I have been thinking a lot about this selfishness post. Possibly the most significant idea that has been presented to me from outside this forum is to have a goal of thinking of the other person and not hurting people so damn much. I have hurt a lot of people I care about this year. Alot of it is because I was being truthful with myself and speaking up. Also though it was fear. I cannot say I will never hurt anyone again..I wish to do it less and take more responsibility for it that I used to(On this front I have gotten a LOT better)
I am witnessing a situation which clearly illustrates how far this fear and hate and selfishness and greed and all those type of emotions can go. I see the fear and pain in the parties involved and its truly agonizing to watch let alone be somewhat of an involved party. I really am not going to go into it here because of just how crazy and insane it is...But I am watching the selfishness play out right before my eyes... It has caused me to really question an awful lot of stuff. I certainly see how incongruent that amount of selfishness is with who I want to be or even am. there is a lot of truth to the idea that everything you need answers to is right before your eyes, just that sometimes you do not see it.
I will end this post with a quote from my uncle who at this moment is in an intensive care unit recovering from open heart surgery with some massive complications. I went to see him the other day and was shocked that I could not really communicate with him...This really sums up the balance of selfishness and selfishness of which I was originally thinking of....
Maturity is the ability to express one own feelings and convictions balanced with consideration for the thoughts and feelings of others...