As far as the title of my post, I wasn't bragging, as some might have thought, but rather gently making fun of myself and at the same time in a great deal of pain over this.
It feels almost Karmic. So rebound must be all love he had for his wife, he was so happy to have once again when he found me. He projected all that love onto me, and that's what I felt, the force of that much love is what I fell in love with. So from a male/female polarity perspective, I'm experiencing the result of how well she treated him (very well) and now, at the thought of loosing him, I'm experiencing the exact type of pain he went through when she left.
Does this mean I'll have to be married for thirty years before I can feel close to this type of love for someone again? It's a deep selfless love of the type I've never felt before. The pain is just that he won't let us just exsist-without-judgement while he's going through this.
What I need to know is not how to let him go, I'm doing that, but how to lessen the pain I'm going through as a result. It's almost debilitating.
Last edited by Silent Lucidity; 10-07-2008 at 02:42 AM.
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