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Shyone · 10-05-2008, 03:14 AM

Throughout my entire childhood, I just assumed that I was going to become very successful as an adult. I didn't know how, or what I would do, I just figured it was a given. Now, as I'm approaching twenty, it occurs to me that perhaps I was simply delusional. It hurts to say it, but I'm afraid it must be true. I have never succeeded at anything, ever. I have lost all ambition, all goals and all dreams. Every single attempt I've ever made at achieving success, has been met with failure. I feel like my dreams will never become realized, because I do not have what it takes. Every time I ever attempt anything, I stop right away, knowing that I will only fail. I know this sounds very negative, but I think I'm just being realistic. I have no skills, no talents, no natural abilities. I am terrible at math, science, language, history, geography, politics sounds like giberish to me and my memory is awful. I work at a daycare, and the children love playing memory against me, because they always win. I honestly think that I am slow. I think if I were to take an IQ test, I'd be low low low average. I'll give you an example of why I believe that. I lived in a town called Oakville the first two years of college. And every weekend my dad would pick me up, and I would return back to my home town which was half an hour away. To this day I do not know how to get to Oakville, despite traveling there and back for two years straight. When I hear people talk about politics or history, I can't understand what they are saying. It's like they are speaking a foreign language. I live in Canada, and yet I cannot name the prime minister, despite the face that I've attempted to memorize his name on numerous occasions. I cannot locate my province on a map. I cannot name the provinces of Canada. In other words, I'm dumb. I don't know anything about the world, other than what is in my immediate life. When I speak it is often difficult for me to express my thoughts, and articulate my ideas in a manner which can be understood by others. I feel very self conscious about my lack of intelligence. I do not want to be a "simple person", but I'm afraid that's what I am. I apologize for being so negative, I just felt like I needed to get it off my chest. How do I get over my embarrassment, and shame at being so slow in comparison to other people. I want to get an iq test, to prove to myself once in for all that I am slow?

10-05-2008, 03:14 AM	#1 (permalink)
Shyone Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 76	I am what you call "slow" Throughout my entire childhood, I just assumed that I was going to become very successful as an adult. I didn't know how, or what I would do, I just figured it was a given. Now, as I'm approaching twenty, it occurs to me that perhaps I was simply delusional. It hurts to say it, but I'm afraid it must be true. I have never succeeded at anything, ever. I have lost all ambition, all goals and all dreams. Every single attempt I've ever made at achieving success, has been met with failure. I feel like my dreams will never become realized, because I do not have what it takes. Every time I ever attempt anything, I stop right away, knowing that I will only fail. I know this sounds very negative, but I think I'm just being realistic. I have no skills, no talents, no natural abilities. I am terrible at math, science, language, history, geography, politics sounds like giberish to me and my memory is awful. I work at a daycare, and the children love playing memory against me, because they always win. I honestly think that I am slow. I think if I were to take an IQ test, I'd be low low low average. I'll give you an example of why I believe that. I lived in a town called Oakville the first two years of college. And every weekend my dad would pick me up, and I would return back to my home town which was half an hour away. To this day I do not know how to get to Oakville, despite traveling there and back for two years straight. When I hear people talk about politics or history, I can't understand what they are saying. It's like they are speaking a foreign language. I live in Canada, and yet I cannot name the prime minister, despite the face that I've attempted to memorize his name on numerous occasions. I cannot locate my province on a map. I cannot name the provinces of Canada. In other words, I'm dumb. I don't know anything about the world, other than what is in my immediate life. When I speak it is often difficult for me to express my thoughts, and articulate my ideas in a manner which can be understood by others. I feel very self conscious about my lack of intelligence. I do not want to be a "simple person", but I'm afraid that's what I am. I apologize for being so negative, I just felt like I needed to get it off my chest. How do I get over my embarrassment, and shame at being so slow in comparison to other people. I want to get an iq test, to prove to myself once in for all that I am slow? Last edited by Shyone; 10-05-2008 at 03:18 AM.