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forynav · 10-04-2008, 11:32 AM

I must add that sometimes I feel GUILTY for being as LUCKY as I am. I have the most wonderful family I could ask for. My Dad doesn't just inspire me, he has inspired everyone in his hometown and has changed so many lives. My mom showers me with so much Love, I really have no business asking for more. My sister is the most perfect gift that I ever got. We simply "click". I love her very very much and I thank God, Source, Higher Intelligence every day for blessing me with such a wonderful playmate.

And, my cousins are my greatest friends who support me for all the silly things I do and care for me more than they do for their own children. In short, I'm like the King of my family and that realization, as much as it should help, pushes me further into self-pity.

Because, there still is a gap. And, I'm normally good at looking over that gap and focusing on my studies and working to make Dad proud. But, sometimes, I slip and fall in this hole.

I'm very honest with myself. And as stupid as it sounds to me while typing this - my cause for despair and depression is that I do not have a girlfriend. Someone, I can share the wonderful person that I am with.

This is not about peer pressure or social status. I just need that connection. I want Love. SO simple, yet so tough.

Thanks for reading.

10-04-2008, 11:32 AM	#3 (permalink)
forynav Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 163	I must add that sometimes I feel GUILTY for being as LUCKY as I am. I have the most wonderful family I could ask for. My Dad doesn't just inspire me, he has inspired everyone in his hometown and has changed so many lives. My mom showers me with so much Love, I really have no business asking for more. My sister is the most perfect gift that I ever got. We simply "click". I love her very very much and I thank God, Source, Higher Intelligence every day for blessing me with such a wonderful playmate. And, my cousins are my greatest friends who support me for all the silly things I do and care for me more than they do for their own children. In short, I'm like the King of my family and that realization, as much as it should help, pushes me further into self-pity. Because, there still is a gap. And, I'm normally good at looking over that gap and focusing on my studies and working to make Dad proud. But, sometimes, I slip and fall in this hole. I'm very honest with myself. And as stupid as it sounds to me while typing this - my cause for despair and depression is that I do not have a girlfriend. Someone, I can share the wonderful person that I am with. This is not about peer pressure or social status. I just need that connection. I want Love. SO simple, yet so tough. Thanks for reading.