May I make one more suggestion about the "finding a girl" intention? Even amending to "find a secure girl" still focuses on lack. The unconscious question is "Dear Universe, please send me a secure girl (not like that clingy, needy creature you sent the last time!)"
Do you think it might be more empowering for you to ask "Dear Universe, please send me (or "I am creating") a loving relationship in which we're both glowing with strength and freedom" - or whatever it is you really want in your relationship?
Also, it might be valuable for you to take on all the responsibility for that issue. Might you yourself have a deeply buried insecurity that you've buried, and are acting out in ways that make your partners feel off-balance? Is there some self-fortification you can do while you're waiting for a great girl to show up, so that she feels safe and will do the same for you? Relationships are mirrors!
Best wishes to you!
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