Hey, Brian, welcome to the forums, and I hope you get boatloads of value here.
I am very sorry for the pain you're going through. And I'm going to jump right in with what I think, so please pardon my brusqueness!
From your photo, you look like a very attractive guy a la Tom Hanks. You are well-spoken and clearly intelligent, a loving father; you seem to have a very big heart, full of love and the desire to make a positive difference in the world. In short, you're a catch. So it didn't work out with S.; that doesn't mean anything about you. You are lovable, and her choices don't alter that even one tiny bit.
And. Oh my goodness, Brian -- your website is so hangdog! It's so full of focus on what you don't want (e.g. feeling bad) disguised by "I'm committed to transforming NOW" talk. How I would love to hear you focus on what you want -- to hear the story of how vital and delicious and exciting you are, the story of the life you'd like to inspire your kids by living. I'd love to hear your willingness to give up your focus on S. (hurt-paint-separation) and your willingness to be available to a life (and maybe even a woman) you're in love with.
You might not be there yet, but there will be more room for what you want if you practice letting go of what you don't want. In other words, to paint your own room! (symbolically speaking.
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ABOUT ME {As reimagined by Angela } My name is Brian. I am a single man in the prime of life, and am currently enjoying the fruits of having been an underachiever my whole life -- it's great to be underestimated! I am in the exciting process of discovering new, wild, hot passions in every area, and am living the adventure of reinventing my life. I am a renaissance man, with interests all over the board, and it feels great to explore them all. I'm currently rethinking my career -- I'm looking for my best path for adding value to the world and making tons of money doing it. As enviable as it sounds, things came easily to me my whole adolescent life so I never developed the habit of suffering and focusing on what's not important to me. I am an infinite being, and I'm interested in expanding more and more into the infinite joy, abundance, power, and love that is who I really am. This blog will follow me through my adventure in expansion.
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