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Originally Posted by fellowtraveler  I sometimes hesitate to share, as though if there are too many oberservers, the thing I treasure will vanish like a soap bubble. Like it's something I can only see from the corner of my eye and if I look directly at it, it will go away.
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FT, I can relate to much of what you have said. I used to look back on my life, thinking I could have done better – become a doctor, lawyer, writer, famous musician, or whatever. It never happened. I ended up working to support my family in an ordinary job and that’s about it.
No matter what happens in life, I seem to have to go through the same process of moving from non-acceptance to acceptance. So, it seems life has given me a test of how well I can accept that I didn’t achieve the success I used to dream of.
From what I have read on this forum and elsewhere over the last year or so, the best thing is to accept whatever situation we are currently in. If we can do that, then things will change for the better.
If I am not accepting something which appears external, it means I am really not accepting something about myself. Once I have accepted/understood the issue about myself, then the external manifestation of that issue must then evaporate and cease to be a problem.
Currently, I am using a method of approaching any up-and-coming event (even if I feel some fear or anxiety about it) of welcoming it in a, what may seem, ridiculous, exaggerated fashion, ‘Yes, yes, this is wonderful. Thank you God/Higher Self for giving me this brilliant opportunity to advance spiritually. It’s just what I wanted. Thank you sooooooo much for this wonderful gift!’.
I am at last beginning to accept that whatever happens ‘externally’ is the exact prescription I need to take, in order to cure the inner problem.
Best wishes.