positive stories- it is difficult to share positive stories without sounding like you're bragging don't you think? particularly without a leading question giving some context/rationale for posting.
my positive story... I am very glad my relationship with the last guy I was dating has finally evolved over to a real wonderful friend, that all of the pain of continuing to open to him and continuing to listen to him, though we aren't together, has proved worth it. Also I suppose I could gloat that I don't seem to have a problem meeting men despite a shy geeky personality and not particularly wonderful looks, and that my current boyfriend called me a 'tall, white, female mirror image' of him.
Though perhaps it is a bit off-topic, I'm also grateful for a bit of inspiration to express how I'm feeling in a way I at least find satisfyingly accurate, and grateful for the various friends and communities that acceptingly listen to my craziness:
I need a quieter life because otherwise I can't hear the music; I need a simpler life so I don't keep bruising myself on the sharp projections of everyone's expectations. Or I could stop trying to dance, but then what's the damn point? Once you've realized the irritating whispers are actually distant strains of Bach, you can't be satisfied shuffling through the communal war-dance to the thudding drumbeat of productivity. I'm impatiently longing for the softer harmonies remembered from childhood, resenting that I only snatch pleasure in the odd moments when the war-dance happens to fall into time with the real music, and tired of having my raw skin pelted with red white and blue paintballs every time I try to pirouette out of line. Now I'm trying to lead someone else though I've learned only half the steps, dance them only a short fraction of the time, and am unsure if my partner can even hear the music.
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