Behaving as if the God in All Life Mattered was one of the first books I read when I began my path of awakening... 20 years ago! I didn't really "get" most of it at the time, it was SUCH a different way of looking at the world, but I loved the book. The author speaks to the "devas" or spirit guides of the animals and insects, and communicates her needs to them - i.e, this corner of the garden is for you, but don't mess with the rest of it!
Steve, I have felt for a while that deeply connecting with the Earth on a real, practical level would be very beneficial for you, very healing. Not just thinking, or in the choices you make, but digging in the dirt, living with the rhythm of the earth, not a clock. Is that possible for you?
Findhorn Garden was founded with the principles found in Machelle's book, and they've had great success.