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Originally Posted by Breezy  I don't mind being a perfectionist, it has helped me accomplished what I have, problems arise when everything begins to feel like work, not only work...
For me on the other hand fun is work. For example, I decide to see a movie, I automatically get certain goals in my head, to make an absurd illustration, if I do not laugh 33.5 times, then I have failed. And it doesn't matter if I laughed 33 times, it is still a failure. |
This sounds familiar -- it sounds to me like OCD, like perhaps you are a bit depressed and overwhelmed by the effects of obsessive compulsive disorder. Maybe you'd like to read up on it and see how it resonates for you, and perhaps talk to a therapist. There are many different ways OCD shows up (mine had mostly to do with symmetry) but they have in common a sense of overwhelm and the perfectionist's "goals" which are really rituals. Take a look -- there's a lot on the Internet about it.