Sounds like you're having a tough time at the mo alright. I think you are definitely doing the right thing looking for a job, which brings focus, and meeting some new people as a result should be really helpful too. Its a case of opening some doors around you for the next few weeks, perhaps joining a club or something, generally trying to shift your focus onto yourself and your life outside your relationship and away from the relationship itself. By working on this side of your life two things may happen. You will be more fulfilled from things outside your relationship (as well as the relationship too) but also you will possibly be in a better position to deal with you and your bf's situation when you come to talk about it it a few weeks. I could be wrong but I think by gaining some more independence from the relationship, it may benefit both you and your relationship!
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