Originally Posted by Maguru
My wounded self created a way to deal with the experience and that was to 'not think about it'. I didn't. I didn't talk about it. I was very positive. I now know for sure I did not respond to my feelings. I reacted to others.
I know that this is not the LOA forum, but there is a LOA point here which could be useful. Lots of people think that to apply the LOA, the idea is to avoid thinking negative thoughts. This is too simplistic.
If you have negative thoughts occurring at the trivial level - eg ("I can't find my keys. And I'm late for work again. Oh damned @#$%^&%$#") - it is quite feasible to cut off those thoughts and refuse to entertain any further.
If however you have negative thoughts occurring at a deeper level, eg as a resut of a traumatic or very painful experience, then suppression is not the way to deal with them. You have to face those negative thoughts directly, and transform them.
Not ignore them, not suppress them, not repress them. But face them directly, and transform them.
In one of the key techniques of the Silva Method, for example, you go to alpha state and you then describe your own pain / suffering / traumatic experience to yourself. There is no running away. You pin down exactly the problem - eg "I was raped. It has messed me up. I am really hurting".
And it's from there - that you start transforming the thought. And you start transforming the reality.