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Originally Posted by Maguru  Thankyou, I think I understand you to mean the 'meaningful aspect of life' to be that 'there is more to it' than meets the eye. The aspect being more of a 'portal' which indicates an expanded reality. Is that what you mean?
I guess I am personally looking for something meaningful that is more tangible. |
After thinking about it yesterday, I figgered I hadn't really given you what you wanted, so here's a try. I've posted about this before, so sorry if it's redundant.
I've had synchronitities all my life, but just passed them off as coincidences or sometimes as things that were "out there" but unexplainable.
Almost exactly a year ago, I was having anxiety problems handling my son's illness, so I went to a psychologist who I'd known years ago. He's extremely intuitive himself and saw that there was a large hole in my soul (not his term). Knowing that I am relatively intelligent, he directed me to independently research the zero point field - that's it. I began reading voraciously, and due to the nature of the internet, one thing led to another and another, etc. The
Library at Halexandria was the first most intriguing source, btw.
So, I began looking for synchronicities. There were a few that were...maybe, maybe not. So, i just said to myself, "self, I'd really like a clincher...something that, for me, will show me that I'm on the right track because I don't want to waste my time."
One day we were in my wife's Jeep - I was driving. I parked, and for whatever reason glanced at the odometer. It read 176176. Hmmm, kind of a cool pattern of numbers but meant nothing to me. Then I had a thought - I told my wife to play 176 in the daily lottery drawing
that day - day drawing or night, whichever. We almost never fool with the lottery, btw. She happened to stop at a store later that day, and played 176. That night I checked, and almost peed myself when 176 turned out to be the winning number.
Now, I'm no numbers guy, and I'm sure a statistician or Richard Dawkins would make mincemeat of me. But, I know what I saw. I don't care what the odds are - this was proof enough to me that there's something "out there". I had asked for proof, and short of a giant talking Screaming Yellow Zonker appearing in my living room, this was just about as solid a clue as I could ask for (which I had). My shrink friend was impressed and asked me what it meant - I said the money was trivial no matter what the amount, but that it had shown me that there are indeed invisible connections, and that I intended to be more "mindful" in my daily affairs to see what else I can discover.
Since then I have had many, more subtle (mostly) synchronicities that would have meaning only for me, but in that context they are very powerful and comforting. Everything from a screech owl calling when I asked him to, to ears of dried corn showing up in my path when I was worried about being provided for, to the 11:11's showing up at significant points in time.
True, being "mindful" means that I'm actively looking for stuff, and it could be argued that that's why I'm seeing them...but to me that's ridiculous - how would you ever see subtle things unless you
were looking for them? I can't expect the Universe to give me a winning lottery ticket every week just to make it easy on me. I now have extrapolated to the point that I feel we are here to learn lessons - all the theories about the mechanics of that process don't mean a lot to me, it's enough to "know" it's true and to try and discover what it is I have to learn. I also feel that we will get help when we truly need it, and are receptive to it and don't expect to be spoonfed.
I don't hear voices or go flying about in my dreams or see ghosts, but I think I am fairly "claircognizant" - even in school when I was able to appear to grasp a subject like math, it was usually a case of coming up with the right answers without being able to explain why. With an IQ in the 98th percentile, I barely graduated high school, and that was probably one of the reasons.
Bottom line: my tiny little revelation of the other morning seems like an encouragement to me to keep going with this. I am encouraged in this reality because: I have recently stopped a bad habit I had for years with no cravings whatsoever. I have begun
acting on the empathy I have always held for those less fortunate than myself (always figgered someone else would take care of it); and, I have been more hesitant to step on an ant. Yeah, an ant...I have been known to slaughter a pig with a sledge hammer, and have been elbow-deep in deer guts a number of times. I'm not a vegetarian yet, but I now see their point in ethical terms.
I could go on, but that's enough. Sorry if it's too long and boring. I don't really like exposing myself
too awful much because it's not my job to make anyone believe anything - I hate being preached at myself more than anything else. But hey, you asked...
Peace and love to you, whoever you are..
