[The Cloud]

So I've discovered that I have created in myself an anti-me; a make-believe entity that is always opposed to whatever I'm doing in the moment. When I was little, I was often opposed in the things that I wanted and told that they weren't important or necessary. So I decided to create an entity in my head that fulfilled that belief, assuming that no matter what I did the issue would come up anyways so I may as well assume that it's going to be there before I even do anything. Opposition became an inherent part of anything that I did. No matter what, there was always somebody to fight it; I made sure of that.

I actually think that might be just a generalized response, for just about anybody. We make an assumption about how people are going to be, and we create a person in our head that fulfills that belief so that they are always present. For me, that person always opposed me. For some, that person may always be better than them, or judging them, or telling them that something is wrong with them. I don't know, it's new to me, but I think that this little devil on the shoulder is a fairly universal construct. It's an interesting concept that I shall be exploring further.

I'm not sure what exactly to do to prove to myself that this little person doesn't exist, but I'm going to try doing experiments to disprove his existence.