 Always Wanting to Be Elsewhere
I always seem to be chronically unhappy with my present situation. I try to stay positive and optimistic, and on the outisde I think I convey that; but inside I am always obsessing over how to change my current situation/location/etc etc.. I'm finding that no matter where I am -- physically, mentally, emotionally -- I seem to get bored easily and always want to be elsewhere. Last year I very badly wanted to transfer to another university. I did, and now this year (just shy of a month in) I just want to go back. This summer I couldn't stop obsessing over finding a way out of my summer job. When I'm alone, I want other people around. When I'm around other people, I sometimes just want to be alone. No matter what really happened in the past (good or bad), I become reminiscent of it and wish I could go back. I often read about staying in the Now and accepting my current reality, but for some reason these opposing thoughts prevail. I want to be happy, but my thoughts and actions certainly wouldn't convince anyone of this. How can one deal with contradictory thoughts like this?
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