 6 weeks update
The last week was focused more on social. I posted on another thread that I got invited to a party and had a really positive experience. I also screwed up my nerve to call a good friend where I had been letting the relationship drift and set up a park date for us and our kids for this morning. That was not easy for me! If I ever feel anxious at social gatherings, I immediately start internally chanting "I am not comfortable, I am not relaxed" until the anxiety dissipates.
I have made a bit more progress with the annoying habits. I have noticed that they tend to surface more in times of negativity/anxiety. As positive thought patterns emerge, they are becoming less frequent.
Productivity continues to be high, and the physical drain seemed a bit less last week. When I started on the flexibility affirmations, I could not roll my head all the way around without the muscle binding on the right side. That kink has finally dissolved.
Nutrition was not quite as good last week, but I did have one interesting experience with "manifesting" good nutrition. I was craving a healthy snack, but didn't feel motivated to make a salad. I started affirming on "It's not easy to get good nutrition" and then noticed a bowl of raisins on the table, left over from the kids' snack. That made me remember that I had some matchstick carrots and coleslaw dressing in the fridge, and less than 2 minutes later I was snacking on some carrot salad.
"I don't like you" is appearing less frequently, but "I'm not happy" still has a strong stage presence. But it kind of makes me smile, because all I have to do is look around to I see that I am happier than I have been in years. My ego is still screaming at me sometimes, but I just send it love and thank it for being a good sport and working with me on these negative affirmations.
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