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Renee · 12-17-2006, 08:21 PM

Hi. My name is Renee. I've suffered from anxiety and depression for 10+ years. Initially, I beat myself up for not living up to my own expectations. After much therapy, I learned that I didn't have the capacity to do all the things that "normal" people can do. I essentially accepted the fact that I had to lower my expectations of myself (particularily after a suicide attempt). Since this transition (a few years now), I find myself doing less and less of the things I enjoy and using my anxiety and depression as excuses for not persuing a higher quality of life. My self-discipline is next to nothing (if you don't use the muscles, they get weak over time, right?). I very much want to get up everyday and do the things I need and want to do, but my mind constantly says no...for whatever reasons. My concern at this point is.....am I capable of more than I think I am, but am afraid, or am I really dealing with depression daily? I'm guessing it's a combination. I'm looking for others that have gotten to a similar point and how they handled it. Anyone?

12-17-2006, 08:21 PM	#8 (permalink)
Renee Junior Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Posts: 1	Depressed or Not Self-Disciplined? Hi. My name is Renee. I've suffered from anxiety and depression for 10+ years. Initially, I beat myself up for not living up to my own expectations. After much therapy, I learned that I didn't have the capacity to do all the things that "normal" people can do. I essentially accepted the fact that I had to lower my expectations of myself (particularily after a suicide attempt). Since this transition (a few years now), I find myself doing less and less of the things I enjoy and using my anxiety and depression as excuses for not persuing a higher quality of life. My self-discipline is next to nothing (if you don't use the muscles, they get weak over time, right?). I very much want to get up everyday and do the things I need and want to do, but my mind constantly says no...for whatever reasons. My concern at this point is.....am I capable of more than I think I am, but am afraid, or am I really dealing with depression daily? I'm guessing it's a combination. I'm looking for others that have gotten to a similar point and how they handled it. Anyone?