I can identify with you. I went to boarding sch at 13 and used to suffer with severe anxiety when it was time to go back. I was very traumatized by the situation and whenever I said goodbye to anyone I would think they would die and it was the last time I would see them. It just reminded me of boarding sch. This went on in my 20's and whenever it was time to say goodbye I would become really tearful no matter who it was.
Gradually I began to see that time after time I experienced this but nobody died, so began to think about dealing with the situation if it happened. I've just said goodbye to my Mum again today and you know what I've just realised the thought didn't even go through my head. It takes time though and gradually those negative thoughts go.
What is it that you didn't like about being left alone at home? Did something happen or did you fear abandonment?
Alison
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