[August]

Thank you so much for your replies. My situation has improved a little because I've been able to act upon some of the advice given here.
The advice/stories/videos are very helpful and encouraging.

I told them again that I'm not going to university, (or maybe I said 'I don't want to,' can't remember) and I told them what I did want to do.

The reply was (not direct quote) ....Ok thats fine, we were thinking about it a lot and we were worried that the same thing as last time, (me not completing the course) would happen again.
Then we starting debating about what I wanted to do and they put a condition on it. I tried to avoid this and not, like Steve said 'supplicate them' but I ended up doing it anyway.

I was so shocked at their response, it was completely unexpected.
I expected a lot more resistance. For whatever reason it hasn't put me at ease.
It still feels like I am being allowed to do things rather than me making the decision... especially because of the conditions they put on me not going.

Another critical issue is that I depend on them financially (I feel very grateful and guilty that they support me in this way) so I still have to play by their rules.
If I didn't depend on them, I'd be more free to tell them how I felt and to do what I wanted.

I do see the benefit in being more truthful and courageous. I would like to be even more open with my family, (regarding my views on the religion, my career etc).

Eta: I've also sent them some articles, so I'll see how thats received.