[cylon]

I'm starting to sense positive feedback from the world around me. I've been following the process in the new Abraham book, where before I go to bed, I remember all the positive things that happened during the day. In the morning, before I go into my "auto-pilot" mode of worrying about what will happen that day, I just keep reminding myself over and over, the only thing that matters is that I feel good. That I appreciate myself. That I will seek evidence of things going better. That other people's opinions and actions are not the deciding factor in my life. That I can trust in this process, be brave enough to allow myself to accept that maybe I have more control than I realized.

And the world around me seems to be changing. It's subtle, but something's going on. I expect people at work to freak out, they don't, and if they do, somehow it doesn't need to involve me as much. I expect my boss to go overboard, he doesn't (and he should have). And I hear "wow today wasn't so bad--can't remember the last time this went so smoothly" from other people. Especially on a day that everyone was expecting to be horrible.

I can only think this is feedback. Not many details in this post, as I'm still kind of in awe that my thoughts really are making my days easier. I seem to have moved beyond worrying about tomorrow and regretting yesterday.

Part of me can sense that "money", or anything else, really isn't any"THING". We think, life is one way, because that's all we've known, it's how we've been told "life is this way". No one ever told me that what I think, will be reflected back to me. But it keeps happening. Those reflections, over, and over, and over.
And I don't need to understand it. I just need to use it.

Does the universe really orchestrate itself for you? It appears that when you put out the intention for things to be good, and HOLD TO THAT, no matter WHAT... it just happens. I have been FIRM that all I care about... is my own happiness. My own self-respect.

Even though I live at the same place and work with the same people, I feel like I've moved to a different country and am getting used to a new culture.