[August]

Just an update..

I explained to them (not fully) how I feel regarding university. They were having none of it and were adamant that I do a degree. I couldn't assert myself at all.
Its weird because I try to explain to them and then I completely back down, I get very scared and I even feel embarressed for thinking that I could do what I want to... like its not even an option

I know I am being a complete coward by letting others control my life and that I will have to face this eventually.. but I find it SO hard to be courageous and assert myself... I know exactly what I need to do but I don't do it.. and I dont know why I cant make myself do it

So I'm not sure where to go from here.