Wow, a lot seems to be getting in your way of moving in the direction you want.
You said you take full responsibility for you past mistakes, what about your current situation? I know, personally, this is a difficult pill to swallow.
A few suggestions:
- Loose the "poor me" attitude it is not helping you
- Don't begrudge others happiness because you may not be happy
- Forgive yourself
- Decide what you really want
- Find out what you steps you need to take
- Take action (posting here is a great first step)
- Read other post from people who have been where you are
- post a copy of this in main forum for more feedback
I congratulate you on taking this step and your courageousness in exposing where you are right now.
You can and will find your path.
