Well, there's good days and bad days...
On the plus side, I took a weekend off and it was really good. On the down side I spent too much money!
I think I have a block when it comes to succeeding. Every time I get close to having a breakthrough, I seem to have a breakdown! My web design business is going really well, yet I haven't really capitalized on any of it, and keep undercharging people. I haven't advertised anywhere (and yet I still have customers, which is a sign of success!) I'm SURE I could make it work, yet there's this deep fear that if I expend anymore energy on it, it will blow up in my face....
I really want this. I have a nice little life plan worked out, where eventually I have enough money to start a publishing company. I really enjoy designing websites, and I know I deliver good value. I have always committed myself fully to each project. But I still feel like I shouldn't be charging! It's like the only kind of work I feel is okay to take money for is drudgery.
I need to focus on this business, I do have enough time to make it succeed, and from there I can quit the other two jobs and get my weekends/evenings back...
Yet I'd rather come on here and blather about how I can't do it! Or futz around with personal designs, or just think about doing anything EXCEPT making flyers, handing out business cards, chasing up clients.
I think I need to conquer the mental block, and I don't know how to do that when I'm in the middle of the very thing that sets it off!
I want to go and hide!
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