HELLOW TO ALL
This my first post. I have a lot on my mind but don't know how to express it in words.
I am 46 years old and starting my life over once again. My past is full of wonderful and happy times and full of painful ugly regrets. I have made more mad decisions than good
ones. I married late in life out of lust (Not Love) and the only good thing from that was three beautiful children, three girls (twins 14 years old and one 8 years old) I am divorced
from there mother because of my drug use and legal trouble and take full responsibility for that out come. I am happy to say that was all ten years ago I have not used drugs or been in trouble since 1997 thats when I went to truck driving school and got my CDL I have had many jobs since then because of my temper, when I get stressed out I lose it and do or say things that get me fired. Today all this has finally caught up with me, because of my many jobs and my criminal history I cant get employed with all the back ground checks now days. I have been terminated form jobs for not disclosing my history and would not been hired if I did. I have a wonderful sister and brother in law and would be homeless with out them. I decided to up-grade my CDL to open some employment doors
when I went to the DMV to do this I found out the state is suspending my driver licenses for non payment of child support with that I am at my end out of answers. My X is remarried and they both are registered nurses making 150.000 a year. At my best I make
36.000 a year I know and except that it is my responsibility to help support my children but there is something real wrong with I struggle to survive and they go on Hawaiian Cruz.
Can any one help me make some since out of this and give me some kind of direction I have been very a very proud man in my life (TO MUCH) now I am not sure what to do.
Any Ideas will be much appreciated.
