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Originally Posted by zicitron  Steve, I'm a loyal reader of your blogs since a few weeks. You write very well; no doubt about that. Your writings are very inspirational and it has helped me a lot in my personal life but I don't know whether I should voice out my feelings publicly after reading your story about connecting with Mr Lewinson. After all, I think I should since it has disturbed me a bit. I will say it plainly: I don't believe what you narrated. I do believe in God, in angels and in evil but I think you are taking us for a ride with this "connecting with the dead" thingy. Not meaning to be harsh here but I, as a loyal reader to your blog, I think you could have spared us that lengthy paragraph about Mr Lewinson coaching the dead! I do hope he drops that idea and may his soul rest in peace! I am just asking myself if I need to keep on reading your blog; if you are really serious at times; if you are really that sane! |
Dear Zicitron --
I'm sure that if Steve sees a need to "defend himself" he can do this more than adequately, but I don't just
believe he is speaking truth here, I
know he is speaking truth because I am one of his two Toastmaster friends who communicated with Mr. Lewison shortly after his passing. I confess I was hesitant to state this earlier in the thread, but in reflection I realize I've said things that are just as "out there" in the past on my own blog, so I think it's time I bellied up to the bar.
I should preface this in saying that I am nowhere as clear with this kind of thing as Steve and Erin are.
Honestly, Ron and I had had some friction in our relationship, so I hadn't invested any energy into it for about the last three years, and I had little exposure to him otherwise because I had backed away from the Toastmaster community here for a while to focus on writing and blogging.
The night he died, I felt Ron's presence very strongly, and all I could could think was "Ron, everything will be fine. Go into the Light."
I repeated that several times, and the energy I got back off of him was "Will you shut up and listen?"
Ron was a very strong presence to me at that point. This was a remarkable experience to me. I had never had this kind of communication with this kind of clarity before.
So I listened. And Ron told me he regretted that we had not worked through Judy Carter's
Stand Up Comedy: The Book together, as he had suggested we do a few years ago. He had expressed to me, I think back in 2004, that he had a desire to be able to banter and "riff" off of a partner, and at the time he saw me as that partner.
In hindsight, I see now that Ron valued his relationship with me more than I realized. It was rare that he would talk about his personal feelings, and I guess I wasn't that good at reading between the lines with him, so I simply didn't pick up on it.
My priorities on speaking changed after the fall 2004 Toastmaster season, and Ron continued to get himself involved with the leadership side of the organization, so this effort went by the wayside.
Naturally, I wonder now if this may have been a choice that I should have followed, but "the hand has writ," as they say.
So, if you're questioning Steve's sanity, you'll have to question the sanity of this reader, too.
Welcome to the Nut House.