I actually cried while reading this post
The "seize the day instead of worrying about your bills" part really resonated with me. You see, yesterday I finally received the first part of the money from my office sale, quite a large sum. What baffled me these two days was how I felt about it. You see, I was waiting for this to happen for so long. Finally I was able to pay off all the debt I had stacked up the last few years, and I still could afford a lot of shinies. Moreover, there will be more money coming later from this deal. I should feel happy, right? I should be jumping with joy. Well, I feel nothing like that.
In my heart, I still feel poor, perhaps even poorer than before. I have this thought in my mind that tells me to sit on that money and never let it go, even if it means avoiding all the little things that delight me. The fear to be poor
again is just overwhelming. My mother offered me to go to Spain to see Alhambra which I have always wanted to see, and I really considered refusing the trip
just because of the costs!
This post was just what I needed to read to begin liberating myself from this fear. Many thanks.