[The Cloud]

I just thought of something else that I may as well post. I have an addiction to free stuff. If something is offered, either explicitly or implicitly, I have to take advantage of it. Normally this isn't a problem, because I do restrain myself enough not to take more than my fair share until it becomes obvious that everybody has had ample opportunity to take advantage of whatever it is. However, since I'm trying to eat more healthy, it is becoming a larger problem. I have supernaturally good self-control in spending money, so I have no problem buying healthy food. But I absolutely cannot refuse food that is offered to or made available to me, which is almost universally something on the list of things that I consider unhealthy. The problem being that such food is being offered/provided to me at a detrimental rate. The amount should be going down soon due to situations too boring to write about, but that doesn't eliminate the fact that this addiction is detrimental.

It's not even what is being offered that I care about, it's the fact that I can't allow myself to refuse something that costs me nothing to take. And once I have it, I cannot allow myself to waste it. Perhaps that is it; I have a very strong aversion to wasting anything, especially food. If I don't take the free stuff, then there is a possibility that it will go to waste, and that would be a waste. I may as well use it, even if only for the purpose of justifying its creation.

I'm not sure, I'm too tired right now from eating a whole bunch of free ribs and chicken, but it bears exploring.