Well this weekend was good he is going back to school on Monday so it was our last weekend together before he is away for a few months. So I tried to tone the "crazy" down in hopes of having a good weekend.
As for now I just keep trying to tell myself that he is going to talk to his friends I am just trying to not let it bother me. I still having trouble not immediately being sick when he doesnt answer his phone. I can tell myself that he is sleeping over and over, but I still get sick. I know I cant control him nor would I want to be controlled myself so I can see how he wouldnt like being questioned every two seconds.
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Yes, take him off your front burner... just to prove to yourself you can do it.
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My fears are so irrational that I feel that if I do this that he will back off even more. I know it doesnt make sense...
I just keep asking if we are going to be "ok" and his response always is "yes, but we need to work through some things". Why cant I just get a yes? Is that too hard to ask for a little reassurance without a "but" or "however"? Or I am just reading into everything again? UGH lol...
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Were you detached from your mom in your first years of life? Were you displaced by a younger brother? Perhaps were you away from your mother for some time when you were a kid?
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My first boyfriend cheated on me when I was 15 with my best friend. Much of my trust and insecurity issues stem from this I believe. Seeing as this insecurity and jealousy has affected most of my relationships or at least the ones I cared about. I have an appt with a counselor to try and tackle this problem, I guess I just wish it were a light switch and be able to fix this right away
