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Originally Posted by Lauxa  So I was feeling low yesterday and frustrated and about ready to give up on my little thought experiment because of not seeing great results when I had a little breakthrough, a confirmation that I'm on a good path. Because of course my gremlin had to come out and shout "I hate you" in my ear and then I had to think about how angry I was feeling. And I just redirected it so the words were again "I don't like you" and "I am not at peace" and the relief I felt compared to the other thoughts was just so tangible, probably made me feel better by an order of magnitude. Like literally when I affirmed "I am not at peace" it felt like a little sphere of peacefulness wrapped itself around all the anger and created some space between me and it. And I thought of what Abraham said, how you're not going to move from the bottom to the top of the vibrational scale with one leap but that you should reach for the best-feeling thoughts available to you and any thought that brings relief is worth thinking.
And also? Results have been showing up. For the past couple of years I have known I wanted to become a professional web application developer and part of my goals in working on my flashcards site has been to develop my skills to a point where I am marketable. And recently I have been inspired to send out resumes again and apply for jobs and I had an actual interview/tech test on Friday that went very well. So here I am making major progress on one of my long-term goals but still beating myself up for not being good enough. |
Isn't it amazing how hard we can be on ourselves? I am learning that emotions are not "problems." It is okay to CHOOSE TO FEEL them and then release them. It looks like that is what you are doing and that will definitely help you in the long-run!
Thanks for sharing with us.