Checking in again as I continue with this experiment.
The last week was not so good. Lots of escapism - novels, TV, food, etc. - going backwards a bit on productivity. Saw the emergence of affirmations such as "I am not in control" "I can not face reality" and - my newest - "Reality is not pleasant."
Pushing on attitude, I realized I have a melancholy personality so I started working with "I am not cheerful." After a day or two with this, I realized that I associate cheerful with annoying and changed over to "I am not fun." Being fun sounded like a lot of work, so I added "It is not easy to be fun."
Dealing with some anger and sadness, I found the affirmations "This anger will not dissipate" or "This sadness will not dissipate" seemed to almost instantly dissipate (or at least dilute) the anger or sadness. The statement is so ludicrous ("What? Of course the anger will dissipate! It always dissipates eventually!") that the brain rejects it almost immediately.
I am staying away from affirmations dealing with "I want" or "I don't want" because I understand the state of wanting is a state of not having and I don't want to push away the things that I desire. Instead I focus only on it is or it is not, and have the thing at the end of the sentence be the thing I want. It is interesting to me that I seem to be quickly identifying the things that I do want by going through this process -- much more clearly than ever before.
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~Lauxa~
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