That type of music really boils down to holding on to pain in your past, and the times you may have been wronged or hurt. The music Industry lives and dies by relationship songs "the one thing everyone can relate to"
I liken the type of "group think" centered around music to something similar to a story like this: A Father's daughter was killed by two black guys, therefore he seeks justice by joining the KKK and perpetuating the acts of violence committed by those two men". He gets a sense of refuge, and acceptance by being around people who are at his same frequency.
Although not as drastic there are many parallels to your situation. You find a sort of comfort knowing that there are other people who bask in the pain, fear guilt or whatever. It is possible you feel a sense of Identity through it as well. If you didn't have that pain, or guilt to occupy your time what else would you do with it?
No one can tell you right path to take, but it really has to start with finding the reason for the negative feelings. It can be something like feeling neglected or abandoned by a parent from a separated family. Maybe its a Girlfriend that wronged you. (I personally dealt with that for a number of years.)
I can tell you that once you are truly able to let go of that feeling, the music will almost seem foreign to you, and you the desire to listen to it will go away completely.
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