hey, it sounds like you are really struggling with this. While I can't relate to having a fiance, I can totally relate to you and your feelings of jealously, insecurity, and the fear of others telling your sig. o. to leave you. I am currently on a "break" with my bf of 4 years and this is one of the reasons a break was needed.
we have both felt that we were too dependent on each other so when we did hang out with other ppl (me usually with other guy friends, and him often with girls in the group) we would get super anxious and want to call/talk/yell at each other.
I commend you for going to counseling... and just from the impression I get from the average guy and their feelings towards counseling, it seems to show that he loves you a lot to go ahead and do this with you. And that is something that I think is really important.
I know for me, and I have no idea if this will work for you, but with my relationship which was semi-long distance, the things that made my bf appreciate me and want to be with me was when I found things I was truly excited about.
It wasn't always a new hobby or anything, but just another person or anything really... he just said that he appreciated seeing me interact with others and get excited about things and that was one of the things that was very attractive to him.
Now I know your situation is probably totally different than mine, and I know that you, like a lot of people, aleready have a ton of stuff to fill your time/do with your day, but try placing him slightly off of your "front-burner" and find something else to get excited about for a while. This may help him realize something new about you, or spark an old point of admiration he had and it will for sure be good for you.
I hope that things work out! Good luck, and make sure that you are happy! And remember that even with all of the negative there is a huge reason he loves you, maybe you just have to remind both him and yourself of this.
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