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Why are you doing this to yourself? Why not invite larger sums into your life instead of pushing them away? Are you suffering from low self-esteem or something?
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That must be it. Because rather than thinking you were elitist scum for charging $500, my first thought was, "Awesome Steve!" then, "But I'll never be able to afford it. I can't afford it because I don't believe I deserve it. I'm a failure!!" Sooooo productive.
I had an interesting dream the other night - I was at a mansion, but I was working there. The "help" couldn't do things like swim in the pool, or get in the hot tub. (And, the hot tub was *awesome*! Two stories. You had to go to the bedroom on the top floor loft to get in, and you could look down on the hot tub - dive in if you wanted! and you could also look down on the rest of the house. That bedroom is where all of the controls were, for the stereo and speaker system, and intercom, and safe.)
I was going to get in the hot tub anyway, because I thought, "If you have an opportunity to get in a hot tub like that, you have to take it!! I may get fired - that's OK! I'll just ask the owner to join me, then."
I think there's something about thinking of being in service in there - if I life my life to serve, what does that mean about wealth?
Thanks for this post!! I have noticed shifts in my beliefs about wealth, since before I joined the forum, but most definitely since I've been here. I still feel oogly about it - lots to explore!