I do get involved in his hobby a little.
But I try not to get involved too much as it is his hobby, not mine.
And since he spends so much time away from home because of it, I don't want to give him an excuse (like: "well, you go there too!"). I like some of the other people involved but not all of them... Plus I'm a little ambivalent about it. Sometimes I kinda blame them/ the organisation for stealing him away too often...
He does let me into "his world" and into his head. But there are certain places he can't go himself so how can he let me into those...
Like he tells me he has a very dark side and he would hurt me (emotionally) if he lets that out. He’s told me a storie from a past relationship that still haunts him. He was a lot younger then and I think he has learned from the experience. Only he can’t come to terms with it or forgive himself for not reacting right.
I’m not that other girl so I can’t help him there by saying I forgive him...
I can’t believe we can be whole if we don’t accept or at least acknowledge our “dark side”... He’s afraid of it, as if he’s a monster. Only he’s the kindest man I know...