Seeker5, regarding your resistance to getting rid of your belief: don't try! You don't have to get rid of it. Just go ahead and accept that you have been believing "I am f*cked" or "I a doomed" without resisting it. Just let it have its way with you for now, and focus on
being with the impact.
You're right. Frustrated and a little bit f*cked is much better than dead!
