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Originally Posted by Angela  That's funny, because I believe in you, and I sense that everybody else here does, too. But I can see how it would be impossible for you to hear that without rejecting it (as stupid and dangerous, maybe?  ) because you've been practicing believing your own thoughts so hard and for so long.
And that thought makes it feel a little dangerous for me to say this to you.  |
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Nah, I didn't feel dangerous for you to tell me that
. But I did have the automatic faint thought in my head "but you don't
really know me and what I've done" when I read the above that you and everybody else in here believe in me.
I've had plenty of people believe in me too, when I graduated college, telling me how successful and what a great life I'll have..and then end up in that situation I ended up I listed above. You know, how some people nobody had faith in and that person instead end up doing very well? I tend to be the opposite of that, at least career wise and maybe some other areas too.
Hmmm, now that I think of it, I remember one of my friends at work tell me how successful and what great things I have in store for me when I told him I was quitting my last job 2 months ago. In my mind I was going "yeah, right he doesn't really know me".
Ugh. Definitely something I'm going to have to address. If I don't believe in myself, what's the use of even trying? I'll just sabotage myself right?