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Originally Posted by Angela  Seeker5, if you were bringing being Awe and Free-Flowing to these questions of education and financial security, what would be possible? |
I'd be like Rose of Cairo in this matter
. Going along, not being overly worried much about money (at least nothing on the scale I'm currently concerned about) and having one thing or another miracously happen to help me out do what I love to do without having a job I don't want and still being able to live quite comfortably and full of love and wonderful things happening.
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It just occurred to me, is there a belief that sounds something like "believing I am receiving abundance (or power) is stupid and dangerous"?
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Hmmm, I don't think I do. Maybe "Assuming I'm going to receive abundance in the future without concrete evidence of it now is stupid and dangerous" as it may lead me to spend money now with no way of replenishing it. I have done that in the past, when I graduated from college. I had several thousands dollars, and had quit a lucrative programming job and assumed I'd be able to get a decent paying job in a different field doing something different, something I'd love to do.
So I spent 5-6 months spending that money assuming I'll be able to easily replenish it, as well as replenishing the stuff I gave up when I started to move from one state to another. Instead, I wasn't able to get a job I loved, and went broke, and in debt, and started a 5-6 year jouney of being broke, taking soul-crushing jobs I hated at the last minute just to survive, living month to month, with an old broken down car, being stuck, feeling of dispair and depression, etc. I only recently emerged from this state about a year and a half ago, and finally got a good financial situation about a year ago, with that job I quit 2 months ago that allowed me to pay off the debt from all of those years, and save up money.
I know do have a lot of bad limiting financial beliefs. Despite starting a
thread about it a little while ago to try to address some of them, I still hold some of these limiting beliefs like "Being in debt and broke means I'm ruined and unable to do anything in life", "If I am not supporting myself nicely, I am a failure and worthless", and I do seem to equate being broke to being all alone and lonely, eating bad food, being depressed, etc. I know at this point with my total resistance in taking jobs I don't love, I'm quite scared of ending like one of those broken homeless guys, like Samuel's Jackson's character in "Ressurecting the Champ".
Hmmm, I may also not really believe in myself in being able to get a job I'd love to have. I realized while reading Dave Pelzer's book "Moving Forward" a few days ago that I don't really believe in myself.