Thanks for all the suggestions. I know what I have to do and I know that I can't go against my values in doing so, no matter how the evidence seems to suggest otherwise. I'm not usually the jealous type and am usually happy for the success of others, but this particular bit of news just hit me like a ton of bricks and I don't know why but it took me a few days to get over it and I'm sure it would've taken longer without your help.
The universe had better back me up, indeed. That just might be my next bumper sticker.