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Originally Posted by seeker5  I want to become a lightworker.
At the same time, my number one talent that came up during the Strengh Finders test...was competitivenes. I do love competitive events, and I can get really fired up and motivated at the thought of beating someone else in a very worthwhile enterprise, especially if the event is so challenging, I know I have to put my entire being into that competition to be able to win. I also don't like competiting when I know I'll easily beat the other person.
I've heard Steve mention that a lightworker does not compete against other people - does not see life as a competition, as we are all one, and a lightworker's goal is to help others.
So, how do I reconcile the two? |
I highly advise you drop all notions of "tool polarisation" and adopt a mindset of "tool neutrality." What I mean by that is that no inherant method, talent theme, body of knowledge, or tool is inherantly polarised a certain way, just like a knife isn't evil and can be a useful tool or a devistating weapon--or a helpful weapon to protect yourself!
I advise you start looking at polarity in the essence behind what you're doing. Are you aligned with love, or fear? Literally feel your way through it--intellectualising it won't help much, since we're dealing with energy here. Ultimately, I don't think polarity is an inherent universal, but it is at least a useful label and you will see people who are decidedly "darkworker" types or "unpolarised" but with leanings to a certain polarity.
It's super hard to explain this, though, since it's very abstract and I can't tailor my responses to you using my all-important individualisation talent. You're probably analytical enough to understand, though.
(FYI, few people seem to really understand polarity. I think they spend too much time trying to understand what Steve writes, instead of looking to the essential concepts Steve is describing. Over a period of months, eventually I ended up with some sort of holistic understanding of polarity that just "worked." I "got it", and while I still suck at applying it--that's a whole other issue--I can at least consistently apply the principles if I want to. It's just a matter of whether I do or not, fear being an issue there.)
Now that we've got that out of the way...
I frequently use my talents in a selfish way, largely because I believe so strongly that doing the opposite would diminish my contribution. You could call it "enlightened selfishness." People will have you believe that selfishness is just selfishness, but I've been exposed to those people enough now to see that they're mostly trying to maintain a level of being that is comfortable to them, not see you enjoy wild success and the contribution you desire to make.
You can compete with somebody with love, just like I can ruthlessly triage someone (to satisfy my achiever and activator talent themes) with love. Yes, it takes practice and will likely require a new way of doing things that you've never done before. This is indeed the essence of polarity: not many people are truly committed to the commitment. You can't "become" a lightworker, but you can "be" a lightworker. You either are or are not a lightworker in the moment.