Originally Posted by Honeywith4bees
I agree with you on that, my inner critic however, tends to get a little bit out of control
You are most likely out of alignment. Try reading this...you may not understand it...but eventually it will click in. i.e. I sent it to someone else in the forum =).
I believe I know what's going on with you. Granted I didn't read your post but by looking at your tone I think i know what's happening. The reason why you lashed out is because you can't take all the negativity that is being delivered to you. Most likely people are not allowing you to express your full self therefore creating frustration and thus build up/ intense fury (too well known with this pattern =/)
I believe what may be happening to you is what's called "spiritual anorexia". You can try picking up Sonia Choquette's book Ask your guides for her input on this. Basically you need to find what activities your soul truly enjoys and center yourself around the activities. Why you keep building up neg. energy/lashing out is because most likely people won't let you center yourself around those activities/ and or some situational event that you're in isn't allowing you to do so.
A simple way to figure this out is ask yourself What do I really like to do? Eventually if you understand it right away or in a few days it will hit you and you'll know immediately what to do.
Hope that helps. If you'd like to talk more I'm free to help...but sadly I'm still stuck in this situation so my imput may not be the best of advice.