It's quite often that I look back at my school days and fantasize about torturing the people who hurt me, physically and psychologically. And the most appealing thing about these scenarios is that I'd easily able to act upon them if I choose to. |
Very often I would say to myself "Once I get high enough in my career to be secure, I will pay a visit to my home town and make them SUFFER"
I think the tendency for revenge is a common one. I believe that those that hurt you in the past have been punished in some way, maybe not by you, but life does not act kindly towards the unkind. If they were truly bad people, life will hand them their just desserts. Karma is a ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥, and it comes back ten fold.
On the other hand, some individuals of the group that hurt you may now have regretted what they did and repented it. Children (especially teenagers) can be cruel and they are very short sighted. There are a great many things I did (never bullying though), or did not do, when I was young that I would never repeat with the brain I have now.
When you forgive, you let go of the anger. It takes time. But it will get easier as time goes by. Forgive yourself.