A few days ago I had a pretty vivid dream in which some woman and my husband wanted to have sex, and I was fine with that. I was even in the room, doing something else, while they had wild sex. I was totally calm and accepting...right up until the moment he gave her a compliment (I think it was something about being cute or pretty). And THEN I was completely PISSED OFF!!!
How dare he compliment some other woman, when he
never compliments me!
*snicker*
Anyways, Cloud, you remind me a little of my husband, having a difficulty with compliments and conflicted self-worth issues and childhood abandonment and such. It's undoubtedly a great growth experience, what you're going through right now, difficult though it is. I just wanted to send a vibe of *empathy*, loving as I do a beautiful person with many similarities.
Keep at it. You'll get there.