you sound like me. i often get TOOOOOTALLYYYY drawn into a land of deep deep thought and self help and over obsessiveness about music and art and writing and dreams and meanings of things and stuff. everything gets all serious seeming and starts to freak me out. i start feeling kind of out of control, but also like some spiritual thing is taking me over, but after awhile it just feels like im stuck in a weird pile of mush and going nowhere with what was once my inspiration.
and to be honest, i dont really know what gets me out of it. but i have gone into it and come back out a few times in my life. getting stuck in it is usually radiohead's fault. but i think what i eventually do is distract myself with something new. about a year ago i started a weaving class. so now i weave. its weird how its such a form of expression and stress relief. it requires thought and concentration, but can also be done mindlessly at the same time. and its so methodical and mathematical and linear and patterney, it amuses me. and it keeps my hands busy.
i would also recommend doing this ONE thing for yourself that will require a good amount of self discipline: get a source of income. whether it be playing some gigs or getting a stupid job at a cafe or library for awhile, being productive and making money helps you feel like you are actually moving forward and not stuck in mush. i agree with steves article about never getting a job, but to start from nothing and feeling stuck makes a very difficult foundation for starting your own business and making money ONLY that way. thats my opinion anyway. i plan to not have a real job one day, but for now i have to make money while i plan for it. plus a good chunk of start-up capital is nice and convenient to have when starting to work for yourself. so im trying to save.  |