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Originally Posted by carenkh  One thing that blew me out of the water was how the thing *I* was most afraid of, the limiting belief that I had, is what I kept recreating and recreating in the lives of those close to me. |
Yeah, I saw that yesterday when I had the phone call with Angela. We found I had a limiting belief that said I was "stupid and hurtful toward others" in certain situations, or in my translation of the French word "con", at least as I learned it as a kid. I seem to have another belief that it's wrong for me to express love or interest in someone else unless they already are my romantic partner or very close friend, though I've been able to overcome that at times in some circumstances.
Anyway, at one point in the phone conversation, Angela mentioned how much she cared for me and may have used the word "love", and I recoiled at that, I instantly got very cold and very closed off. Thus, she momentarily felt "con" - stupid and hurtful for having said what she said, and it was funny (afterward) to analyze that how I reacted in a way that made her feel the way I feel. We looked at my other limiting beliefs and how I was helping people around me feel those limiting beliefs themselves due to my action caused by my limiting beliefs.
We realized too that I also did that in this very thread, in my response to Angela's first post. I initially had posted something snarky when she wrote "I want to be just like you", because I reacted the same way - closing off like I did in the phone conversation, thus helping her feel momentarily feel the same way I felt about myself.