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HI

I am new to this but I am just so full of **** at the moment. i wonder is it to do with quiting smoking. i am only off them 1.5 weeks and it is only my millionth attempt. i am not sure i am emotionally strong enough. but i do think differently about this time. i get these feeling like no other i think they are brought on by the lack of nicotine but i feel i am really being tricked by my dependancy. I am depressed if i do smoke and depressed cos i dont.

i am having this snowballing effect of just everything right now. relationship problems, i lost my job. I am putting myself through this self therapy cos i want to be able to see the wood through the trees. I even feel better writting this.

I once heard giving up cigarettes is more difficult then giving up heroin. what is it with addiction, if it was easy i guess everybody would stop.

Thats my cribbing done for today